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Whats_Her_Face87
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Name: F.E.
Birthday: 3/10/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: I love God, drama, Homestarrunner, silly cartoons, and dove milk chocolate. I love the smell of dirt, football games, and the sky. I do think that Jesus is the only way to heaven, and i don't think that all cheerleaders are stupid.
Expertise: I'm an expert psychiatrist...but only when it comes to me. I can always sit down and figure out why i'm feeling a certain way...weird, huh?
Occupation: Student
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
MSN: lady_luck7@hotmail.com
Member Since:
7/8/2004
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| I haven't posted on xanga in like over a year. I highly suspect that none of my friends still use this weblog thing and that's just fine with me. Wait... What friends?
I have been far too busy worrying about my romantic life. I miss all my friends. I miss having people that weren't in competition with other people for love and attention. I miss people with whom I can just hang out with and have fun with... Not worrying about how I look or who sees me with them or whether it is going to hurt someone else's feelings. I want my friends back. I need them back.
Is it too late?
I'm finally so lonesome, I could cry. There are people all around me, but I still feel alone. I surround myself with lovers and people I come in frequent contact with all the time... Because when I don't, I remember how much I hate my own company. There was a time when I was at home in my own skin. That was a long time ago...
When did this happen? How did it happen? How did I get to the point where I can't form my own opinion of myself? I don't have low self-esteem... I have NO self-esteem. Without the input of other people, I see myself as an empty shells, with no virtues nor flaws. I have to be told what my worth is. I am self-centered because I am grasping for any glimpse of who I am. I hope that everything that happens has to do with me, because if it does, maybe each instance can provide a piece of the puzzle of my self that I have lost.
Where do I go from here?
I need a shrink.
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| Today I found a Black Sock when I was sweeping under one of my tables at Chili's. Table number 35 to be exact. I was sweeping the usual crumbs and napkins, etc. when i swept out a black sock. Why would anyone take off ONE if ANY socks at Chili's? And if you did, why on earth would you LEAVE it there? This puzzles me. And it doesn't help that it was black instead of white. This along with the fact that it was Sunday imply that this person was well-dressed, maybe in dress slacks at least. WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT? It was so weird. That one little sock made me wonder lots of things about it and its owner... i threw it away. It's getting cold... The leaves are almost done changing... I think it's time for an emergency trip to Bear Cave! : ) Love you All, F | | |
|  Check out this packaging... Doesn't this look like something Barbie would smoke? Advertising these days... Honestly. Haha...
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| My fish wants very much to have sex. Male Beta fish attract females by building a nest from bubbles. The females choose the males with the biggest nests, because the females will later lay their eggs on said nest. My poor Beta fish, Orry, has been busily building a bubble nest. He is about 2 years old (which is extraordinary for my fish) and now he wants to have a wife. I would like to buy him one, but i don't know where to get one. Poor Orry... Poor horny Orry. | | |
| I got this from my Big, Justin Snook... Thanks!! Opening credit: I'm Diving In - Steven Curtis Chapman
First Date: Ich Will - Rammstein (this doesn't fit at all)
Falling in love: You're So Vain - Carly Simon
Fight scene: Instant Pleasure - Rufus Wainwright
Breaking up: Unchained Melody - (From "Ghost")
Getting back together: Dance, Dance - Fall Out Boys
Secret love: Flavor of the Week - American Hi-Fi
Life's okay: Barbie Girl - Aqua
Mental breakdown: Cuz I Got High - Afroman (lol)
Driving: Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds - The Beatles
Learning a lesson: Captain Jack - Billy Joel
Deep thought: Africa - Toto
Flashback: Where You Are - Jessica Simpson and Nick Lachey
Partying: Funky Town - Blondie (I swear!!)
Happy dance: You're Just Too Good To Be True - (10 Things I Hate About You)
Regretting: Sweet Dreams - Eurymethics
Long night alone: Mister Cellophone - "Chicago"
Death scene: The Power of Love - Celine Dion Go figure that I would die listening to this song... A love song by a Canadian.
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